Pregnant With Two Purpose

Today marks the day of my reality of my future and the two i am responsible for so yes will there whisper and talk yes so let it be at this age and time I dont have time for crazness like who really cares it's my life my mistakes and I have to live with the choice,mom said make your bed hard then lay in it. So this time its going to be a rough one I have I so much in life still accomplish and going  to but I am going to make sure that my purpose be includeing into my life. We will be find God doesnt put no more on you than you can bear so even if it calls for gritting and bearing my teeth so it shall be but this to shall past. The years are rushing by actually running by us and before I know it my blessing will be blessing me with the purpose and reason for being!

Things That over Wham YA!

Some of the most over whaming things is when some one you trust does it to you,I were over wham lately because i allow myself to get into a relationship with a person that's actually didnt have a pot to piss in or a window to throw it out. But I tried to build this relationship on a solid ground with what I had to bring to the table help him get on his feet and then we go from there but he didnt get it. He was to busy looking back into the past and reliving the little he had instead of going forward and building together with my strong foundation and we would have adventually arise into greatness with God. But he kept reaching back the both of them using the kids for pitty I have never met such strange and lazy couple they dont like each other but they will claw to each other so none of them will prosper none, and they will tried to out do each other so sad thats why there is no growth they will remain stagnate. Any strong men out there looking to build on a strong foundation.

I have Florida On My Mind

I am ready to go back to Tampa I really miss Darwin some times he can be really crazy with his staring into space he try to be so hard. I really don't know what the reason and purpose of his so hard shield,yes I understand the divorce and all that but when you meet a geniune person trying to be  there for you and you acting like they suppose to be i mean honestly. Sometimes I wonder why any one ever tried I can see that ex wife really scared him she broke him down and she knew she left him just a scrape of a man a shell because she took it all. But know he is hiding behind a page that makes him feel like he is more than what he really is hopefully he will get a gripe and stand up and be a man not a wimp like she created. He can be a good person i belief there is a real man inside somewhere I saw a glimp but he is afraid to let go. Will real Darwin come forward!!!!

Thinking out Loud!

I don't understand how someone suppose to be your ex wants to lean on you like a friend and keep you around for a security blanket i wonder what will happen if you just back away totally. But you are doing the best you can to help and keep the door open because a lot of  your important stuff  still left behind with this guy. So you really have to play along just to keep your shit straight that's in your name so he won't shit on you.Because don't shut the door before all your shit been turned over into your hand. Then you can slam that shit shut walk away and don't turn back.

waking up

waking up on a saturaday morning in Hong Kong I feel the need to walk .

Wow The PRice of Gas and an SUV

Family reunion

This is our first sibling family reunion ,my parents had 14 kids and we are haveing a family reunion for our children,childerren children chirren hahaha yes my parents are the proud grandparents of 271 grands and great great grands great great great grands hahahaha! its going to be so much fun.